The Heart vs The Mind

The nights of lying in bed staring at the ceiling.

We’ve all been there.

“Who am I?”

“What do I want to do with my life?”

“Should I do this, or shouldn’t I?”

“Did I say or do the wrong thing?”

“Am I enough?”

I wish I understood this sooner.

The years I’ve spent trying to figure it all out.

But here’s what I’ve come to realise-

I am what I feel, not just what I think.

My mind is my guide, but my heart decides.

For so long, I followed what I believed was right.

I tried to understand through logic instead of how I truly felt. What I thought was ‘best’ didn’t always have my back. It didn’t always feel right.

So, I shrank.

I fell back in line.

And somewhere along the way, I lost my sense of fulfillment.

This is where I felt the shift.

My beliefs changed, and I started to see things differently.

This year, I decided – that’s ok.

I think differently. I feel - different.

I am relearning who I am and what I stand for.

It may not look like everyone’s path. But I don’t want to be like everyone else.

The more I follow my heart, the closer I am feeling more fulfilled.

The mind holds information – everything we have learned along the way. It stores the lessons. The disrespect, betrayal, jealousy, and trust issues.

The mind certainly is a powerful tool, but the heart moves differently.

Sometimes your mind works against your heart. And that’s where our internal conflict begins.

A lot of us are all walking around with some kind of internal battle.

For years I have lived with brain fog. Overthinking, second-guessing and trying to figure everything out.

Experience has shown me new light. The views I once had don’t even fit anymore.

I see this now in my past relationships.

I didn’t know back then how to identify and separate the difference of a relationship worth fighting for, but at the cost of my own peace – was not a true form of love. My mind knew the standard and expectations. But my heart was suffering.

I am finally acknowledging and respecting what I feel.

And I love myself more for doing so.

I grew up with hopes and dreams for a career path which not everyone believed in. I lost faith in myself and my dreams. I believed another person’s words over mine.

But do I feel fulfilled?

No.

Now I am stepping into all the things I talked myself down from. I am feeling much more growth, whether I fail or not.

I still find it difficult to have faith in myself, but every step so far has been rewarding.

I can choose to grow, rebuild my own beliefs, values and perspective.

Things I used to be so against, I see new light too now. I have more understanding.

Let’s throw away the right from wrong for a second.

Each person lives a unique life. And if a friend comes to me for guidance, I won’t put their needs in a right or wrong category. It is not all black and white.

I will listen to - you. Your tone, your gestures, your emotions.

I will do my best to visualize and connect to what you feel.

Because the value of someone living their own fulfilling life - is what matters to me more than anyone else’s opinion or typical tradition.

The mind is shaped by conditioning.

The heart is aligned with truth and fulfillment.